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Don't Feed The Monster

by Homeboy Sandman

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1.
Trauma 03:05 video
I got trauma from my momma She used to beat me down as if she was the brown bomber I couldn’t figure out a way to make her feel calmer I think about it now it kinda make me feel somber I used to think about it didn't make me feel nothing Acting like it mattered didn’t make me feel tough and Feeling tough was really like my #1 focus From growing up in a city lots of people feel hopeless And listening to music about sex and violence Just a matter of time 'fore we was like “let’s try this” Started having sex when I was 12 years old My brain wasn’t even done growing Coming from a mom that used to wild and bug ‘Fore i was a teen I really needed that love 2 years later she would dump me for senior Solidifying my misogynist demeanor Hearts that young aren’t meant to be broken Later on I’d get into incessant weed smoking Now at 39 I still be wishing and hoping Somehow we wind up together I am not joking But lemme take it back before my parents got hitched My pop was with a woman then that had it all wrong By 5 years old i would already think about sex She used to let me hump her legs when he was gone I know that sounds mad Under the sheets, rubbing my crotch against her calves I realize now I always knew that it was something bad ‘Cause up until this song I always kept it from my dad But how come any 5 year old would wanna hump legs? I just might have to owe that to my neighbor next door He was a little older and a little more mature My mother caught us playing doctor I was only 4 Luckily she caught us ‘fore we started using mouths But not before I found out how it felt to get aroused Now I think about it as a grown intellectual Life as a shortie shouldn’t be so sexual I also shoulda never had to lie to BCS That type of thing could really bring a kid a lot of stress My mom had trauma too so she was only doing her best I feared that they were gonna take me out of my address No wonder my relationships with women always fail What’s crazy is I’m lucky ‘cause at least I’m not in jail Compared to everybody else I had it so easy Got family that was touched up by uncles that’s so sleazy Won’t put they business in the street ‘cause they know who they are The question I have trouble answering is who am I? For almost 40 years I was afraid to even ask My father always taught me men are not supposed to cry So every bit of pain I ever had I locked away But now I’m here to let you know that that is not the way I thought that I had tricked myself, thought I was being slick That fantasy departed when I started getting sick The doctors couldn’t tell me any way to make it stop My soul was under too much pressure it was gonna pop It turned out that the only way that I could ever heal Is start to work through all the trauma I had kept concealed It hasn’t happened overnight I know that it might take a while May even take a life But one way or another I just gotta make it right Right?
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Extinction 04:59
Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? I wish that I could give the planet earth a spanking To vent frustrations i allude to in the hook Right now a talent crazy as Aretha Franklin Is an unknown because she doesn’t have the look I find I come across a lot of nonbelievers With the exception of believing in the hype And you’re not relevant ‘less you’re as big as Bieber And you’re an activist as long as you can type As a human I can’t help but feel the shame In my system when the signals are relayed I don’t think it’s that I have a fear of change I just think it’s that I have a fear of lames That’s not to say that i am even cool myself I’m wise enough to know that I am plain not But virtuoso of the smile and nod As I abstain while everybody name drop Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Is it better to be talented or famous? I admit to you I wish that I was both But if I only could choose one to be my favorite The answer’s talent and it isn’t even close If you’re gifted and upset that someone else Who’s less gifted's treated like a bigger deal Then your frown’s ‘cause your profoundly out of touch I’m afraid that you’ve forgotten what is real Most people feel that they’re omniscient in a sense And well informed except for isolated incidents If you believe in slavery and in the holocaust But not conspiracy, that’s cognitive dissonance But facing that would mean you’d have to face the truth And become comfortable embracing the unknown To even mention that to you is just a waste Your better off keeping your face all in your phone Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Oh my god We’re in the era of trying too hard Everybody’s so afraid to make mistakes Different filters every picture that they take It has gotten audacious The extent we have to take it back to basics Regardless what your race is If you judge people by their race you're racist Perhaps we oughta have a contest As a way to help me put it into context Can anybody rap 'bout some new content Can anybody rap 'bout one new concept Once again I’m throwing stones when I am not without sin Wish I could look at all of y’all and not wince But I cannot win Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born? Are any cool people still alive? Or is it all the cool people have died? If all the cool people have gone When will the new cool people be born?
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Stress 03:36 video
Stress is a way to make yourself sick I try to never get stressed, while I exist So if you feel the need to shout then shout loud Don’t try to hold your stress in, you’ll get stressed out Once wanted an apology, no apology came I started to feel the cells in my physiology change I had to tell her "baby I think we should take a break I need me a solution, pollution is in my brain!" Stresses are all around Stress wants to be a verb Make sure that it’s a noun When stresses are repressed Effects can be profound So don’t be in denial When stress is going down Try to take it all in stride Please don’t keep it all inside Meditate or exercise Get the demons exorcised STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER, FOR FOLK THAT NEVER SLOW DOWN ALWAYS GOTTA BE ONE THE RUN STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND ONE STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR FOLK THAT NEVER FALL BACK ‘CAUSE THERE’S ALWAYS SOMETHING TO PROVE STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND TWO Stress could sneak in on a weekday or a weekend Folks think you’re being foul but it’s really the stress speakin' You might start being mean at the times when your stress peakin' You’re like a submarine letting out a distress beacon AKA a distress signal There’s stressful relationships and stress from being single Maybe you feel stressed because you aren’t free to mingle Or maybe you feel lonely during the days if Kris Kringle Broke people often think they’re stressed ‘cause they’re poor but I have seen too many stressed rich people to ignore Given money is generated through blood and war Obviously creating stress is what money’s for Stress’ll make your vibe awkward Stress’ll make your mind altered So if stress is on your mind often try to keep your mind off it STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER WHEN PEOPLE NEVER SAY NO STEADY WASTING ALL OF THEY CHI STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND THREE STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR FOLK THAT NEVER LET GO ‘CAUSE THEY NEED TO SETTLE THE SCORE STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND FOUR Stress is the number one killa! Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one Stress is the number one killa! Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one Stress is the number one killa! Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one Stress is the number one killa! Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER WHEN PEOPLE PUSH AWAY TRUTH, LIVING AN ABUNDANCE OF LIES STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND FIVE STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR FOLK THAT NEVER TAKE TIME ALWAYS WANNA BE IN THE MIX STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND SIX
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New dimensions, feelin specialer Naked on your mattress wit big patches of eczema The ones you keep scratchin wit your toenails Stop i had to cop the 20 gallon lotion wholesale Flying squirrel lats Keep em flexed to hide the stubborn backfats That's from all the reckless burger king breakfast that i used to gobble 'fore i flexed the pec and make the teta wobble Otherwise the waistline slim The six pack subtle but the chest hair trimmed HELLO DANCER WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE? Wang hang slanted Front and rear delt like you felt granite *uckin gigantic All organic, opposite of frail Also Wintertime behold a pale torso Innie Back like a jet pack Greys as signs of age but ‘round the jimmy jet black Limbs like tree trunks Perestroika for your oyster bringing moisture to your p-funk All swollen like a bee stung Fatty like a beef tongue HELLO DANCER WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE? Dig it uh hold up let me finish. They thought he was holed up wait up hold up he’s in Venice. Feel it yeah naw that’s that feeling I might be too lifted oh no watch the ceiling. pardon. Chest out Parton. Best foot forward. look so good get carded. thank you. Thank you very much. Real Gs move and q keeps it very hush. my dime piece off that dairy guess the the 90s ads was right. Say every fad returns when it returns I’m always tight HELLO DANCER WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE? Left this nest feeling luscious. Skin brown and serve em up like it’s breakfast. Rob Townsend glow off the meteor flexin. Leroy Green incisors. Mike Piazza no questions. You’ll either catch the breasts or the pecs it just depends on how good the checks been. Geniuses get caught up in the text and then miss the lines within lines of inception. butters from the brothers for the texture. core work and ellipticals for the sextras. strutting on em! Birthday suit fresher than a zoot suit.
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Most the time that's in the world Is time that i will wind up spending waiting on my girl 10 minutes after waking i be ready for the gym Four hours after waking and i be like what the *uck She got like 90 different tasks And all of them are very slow and none are very fast Supposedly every single one is crucial It's some ish that i don't ever get used to Sometimes i ask her if she's almost ready Each and every single time she says “yeah“ I don't think she's lying on purpose I really think she has no idea How long minutes and hours really are I know it sounds outrageous and i know it sounds bizarre But no matter how many times i try to set her straight The only thing that i could ever do is sit and wait I BE WAITING ON MY GIRL ... I tell my girl we're leaving 7 She be like “word“ But that is absurd Sometimes i wind up waiting outside She has no concept of time I love her and we'll never ever break up But why it take 100 million years to do her makeup? Don't get me wrong i like it when she dolls up But trying 20 different outfits on makes me say what the *uck Do i even have to mention Thee bathroom is like another dimension What goes on inside is something i could never explain Time exists on an entirely different plane Inside i know we really gotta run Instead I'm in the living room twiddling my thumbs Makes me never wanna leave my borough The time I know that I'll invest waiting on my girl I BE WAITING ON MY GIRL Before she was my girl yo i was always on time But now while i be waiting i just sit and write rhymes It's not unusual that she be taking so long That by the time we break out i done wrote a whole song I'll write an album 'fore i get to heaven, no bull That outcome is inevitable No ifs ands or maybes Better than going crazy If we gotta leave at ten i say we gotta leave at eight We're still a half an hour late By the time we call the uber or the time we call the lyft She really has a gift I'm just being expressive I'm not even really mad Actually it's quite impressive We'll be leaving in a second fam Till then I'll just be staring at the second hand WAITING ON MY GIRL ...
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Holy cow I guess I wasn’t ready then because I’m ready now Know sanitation’s tired of sweeping up confetti piles But I’ll keep winning anyhow What’s just above the brow, behind the sternum Be the stern and be the bow The ticker and the thinker The heart and mind The hook the line and sinker We’re gonna need a bigger boat And bigger reel This being the realest thing I ever wrote Whatever titling is code For greatest story that was ever told My baby nice wit beans and overnight she let em soak I float through lucid dreams and don’t point out that I’m from Queens ‘cause that’s a trope I rather death before dishonor And lather up with Dr. Bronner’s soap Head of steam and spreading semen But as seen through a kaleidoscope My superpower is my senses Aren’t boggled down by needing a consensus Matter’s not a matter that requires my attention Minimalist propensities Necessity’s the mother of invention And out for self until ascension The road to hell is paved with good intentions My offer includes compensation complete with a pension For full cooperation and total attention As far as crossing bridges I haven’t arrived at I never tried that So nevermind that The act of decision is exquisite No rule of thumb or any other digit I leave it to the instant ‘cause I seldom could predict if I could dig it Instinct’ll kick in, and start insisting “that’s the ticket” and i listen By definition every flip is different This is even when the coin’s in mint condition Every time I trip and fall I could see a clearer picture in my crystal ball I went from cat that used to play the wall to now I know the mating call for every creature great and small That’s what I call evolved and not a hand that was supposedly a paw Turns out every strength was something I was certain was a flaw And all from tryna walk ‘fore learning how to crawl Rain soaked If you don’t know me by now then we in the same boat For the record like I’s Usain Bolt It ain’t the same as stayin woke Nope I’m an artist not an entertainer My brain is a receiver not a generator I even helped a lady by delivering her baby in a broken elevator Later
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Scare You 03:41
The road less traveled not gold it’s all gravel Burdens on your own back, no pack camel Every step you take is a risk, mad gambles Everybody ready to judge, mad gavels Everything is dark, no torches no candles Make it by the skin of your own tooth enamel Win the war but often leave the battle in shambles Come across a lot you never thought you could handle When nobody is before you or beside you Ain’t nobody done it so nobody can advise you No one else is doing it so there’s no one to relate to You think you could be the first so lots of people hate you Wanna see you falter Hate to think that they live in a system you could alter Luckily that’s a fabrication we could never fall for Bruh YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU Anytime you make a mention Of you straying from convention People start with building fences People start with building tension, voicing worries They want to voice these worries in a hurry They feel like they’re super necessary Should you happen to ignore em they may lose they whole decorum They may even go as fars to clown you in a public forum You rejecting the experience of adhering to the norm really strikes a chord They think you calling em boring Of course All they see is walls and not doors They just move away and not towards Those are their problems not yours And not mines Or like minds Think of this as a wink of the eye It all could change in the blink of an eye but YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU One day they like “don’t quit that job you don’t like you need insurance ‘cause you’re gonna get sick” Next day they don’t let someone know how they feel ‘cause they too frightened that they gonna get dissed One day they like “that relationship might make you unhappy, but you don’t wanna wind up alone “ Next day they like “this is never where i wanted to wind up. Feel like putting a gun to my dome.” ‘Cause there’s nothing more dangerous than playing it safe It’s a trap you need to make an escape Skate Break Don’t wait Making moves with no faith seals your fate There ain’t no gains playing low stakes It's a damn shame tryna save face tryna act sane Nome sane Safe YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU YEAH YOU
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Sometimes I go up on the roof And I walk across the ledge I be careful not to trip ‘cause if I slipped then I’d be dead I don’t do it for adrenaline or do it for the rush No, I do it just for proving to myself I got the guts Deep inside me it reminds me that the stakes are very high Might not live to see the morning any moment I could die Furthermore that going for it is the meaning of my life Like to think that you could see it when you look me in the eye I was not always a expert walking ledges hopping roofs When I started being daring I’s so scared I couldn’t move Still I’d go up to the top and didn’t stop ‘cause I was spooked All I needed was some practicing to get into my groove A technique that I developed since the day that I was born When my heart gets started beating way more faster than the norm When the plot is getting stranger and I know that I’m in danger of being splattered on the ground I never look down TO OVERCOME A FEAT I MIGHT LOOK AT MY FEET BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN ONCE I MADE UP MY MIND AND I MIGHT TAKE MY TIME BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN When my psoriasis is bad and I’m invited to the beach Goodness gracious my temptation is to fret beyond belief Yesterday on my right shoulder it was visible and pink I got caught up in imagining what everyone would think When I got there no one noticed so it wasn’t even bad But I think about the way I’d have responded if they had Being shallow is for a*sholes being vain is being lame I got all that figured out and worry bout it just the same I was talking to my homey when a pretty girl arrived Later on into the night, she had picked up on my vibe It did not take very long before I thought that I could smash Paid attention when I spoke when I made jokes then she would laugh Could have worried that she’d come across a patch and find it gross Go from sitting in my lap to tryna snap and tryna roast But instead I kept it focused later on when i suggested we get closer she was down Because I didn’t look down TO OVERCOME A FEAT I MIGHT LOOK AT MY FEET BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN ONCE I MADE UP MY MIND AND I MIGHT TAKE MY TIME BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN Being an independent rapper isn’t always fun and games ‘Specially me as I’m an artist that don’t never sound the same Since I’m constantly rethinking how I think and how I rap and how I act Every record like I gotta start from scratch It raises questions far as makin scratch But I won’t choke out my spirit with a fear of falling flat I been riddled with anxiety and ravaged by disease Till I realized it’s from worrying ‘bout who I gotta please If I worried ‘bout the critics, getting rich or getting old Then I’d never have the strength to tell the stories that I’ve told If I constantly was burdened by the thought that I could fail I could never be a soldier cause my soul might be for sale I feel fortunate to fork over the cost of being fly Doing stuff that’s super easy while I’m really really high And I know that if I fell it was would be fatal what keep me able to cultivate my sound Is that I never look down
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Monument 04:52
MONUMENT Sunny side of the street Here and now, all kind of mystique Been around, no sign I’ma cease Sheesh My inner child not soundly asleep Push come to shove Non traditional lumps Unconditional love My condition is buff so Opposition is bugged Yup Always wanted to make a mark Got distracted by makers mark My salvation was making art Like to thank you for taking part Throw my Aries on and tie em up Dodged the fit that hit the shan and dapped the fam using the hand that fed the lion cub My closest friend is friar tuck MONUMENT I’m full of hope In present tense I’m in the tempest but I’m still afloat Soaked Know most folks never heard of me but I’m still the G.O.A.T. I accept the throne Ever since the day I said it it’s been set in stone I don’t think they understand me Q Folk had better go get theyself some Rosetta Stone I love faith and belief I love taking a leap I love breaking a lease I love taking a leak between wake and asleep I’m not here to perform I’m not here to pretend Stuff I be on Above and beyond And I done it before And I’ll do it again MONUMENT What an efficient sun I do my best to try to follow its example when I’m time to get these dishes done Consistency’s condition one I’ll lose my vision and get focused on a mission to acquire wealth The times I chase a check it takes a sec to get a check in from my higher self Thanks for dropping by Since any minute I could drop and die So I don’t wanna waste a drop of time Inhibited Or acidic instead of alkaline Ain’t no shame in taking a year or day to wipe a tear away and clear away debris That comes standard for the master and commander Where I’m standing is the place to be MONUMENT
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I been teaching myself Tao on YouTube For peace of mind And taking more time when I chew food Tryna train my left and right brain like a choo choo Don’t engage with a thought ‘less I choose to Lemme introduce you to the new school and unusual Only say things that are useful Triple warmer then my aura is lit I know all the different colors that my organs emit I took an overnight trip to Vegas Everything I came in contact with was anus I wouldn’t recommend it every record was a aimless sort of heinous Came home and cleansed my palette wit the "Quelle beats" playlist That was painless Came up on some cadences it pays to be creative You can emulate the manner of the latter day saint But don’t follow me crossing the street It ain’t safe I put in work then i deliver I make the healing sound and work the anger out the liver In Brooklyn you can’t stargaze But they got unlimited popcorn refills at the Barclays In the dark age Of modified Spotify plays There lived a brother that was brotherly Who used to channel and used to chant Who favorite channel was Discovery In summary I believe in only god and only now Plus I’m vegan so it’s only right, I say holy cow Even tho the other day I had some pizza I just told it for atonement plus was vegan in the moment when I wrote this By now it’s obvious I wasn’t built for showbiz But peep the dwarfs that’s standing on my shoulders And hanging from my scrotum Yo I’m over it I brought a couple flows that I could float em Peace
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Biters 03:40
Suckas bite so much like the bitings accepted Like the bitings expected Not only that Suckas bite so much like the bitings respected Like biting is excellent Wow It’s really is a head trip Men and women bite people they go to bed with People bite people other person barely had spoke That's a bite, someone thinks that it’s the best thing you wrote The biting is reckless People bite fore they even had breakfast How you bite something soon as you wake up? I don’t even understand the chemical makeup Nowadays rappers bite old hooks Listen to me youngin biting's never a good look I know your fanbase not familiar but Jay was doing that back on Roc la Familia Speaking of Jay that brother get mad bit I don’t even understand how homey could handle it Half the rappers that don’t start they name with little or young, start they name with j now where you think that that come from? Biters Biting everybody I don’t even know if it’s a habit or a hobby Cats be acting cocky being copies It is really comedy Biters Death to biters Slow death to biters Gruesome painful death to biters I hate biters Biters think biting is a means to an end If you are a biter we will never be friends Everything they present is only pretend Wish it was something I could prevent I try to lead by example But there are those who’d say it’s biting rhyming over samples Guess biting is in the eye of the beholder Either way I wish biting was over Biting is a sign of the times When they drop a new sneaker just look at the lines I wonder if suckas could think for theyself if they tried Not that they try To even decide Not that they even attempt To ever dissent Or try to be fresh Or try to be new They try to be you All they wanna do is bite and chew Biting's an epidemic Biting's part of everything, its systemic My mother’s not a biter and my father’s not a biter Maybe biting is genetic Biting is pathetic Biting is a diuretic Yeah I said it Sometimes people bite and say they paying homage But that’s garbage I promise In truth they know it isn’t right In truth they know that they are biters The truth is that they love to bite Biters Death to biters Slow death to biters Gruesome painful death to biters I hate biters
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Alone Again 04:00
I woke up this morning in a house not a home I woke up this morning I was all on my own Since I woke up this morning I don’t know what I’m doing I been all in my dome Everything is unknown Wonder if she’ll cooperate and stay away How do I operate on the day to day? And least last night I didn’t lay awake I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn’t shake But new anxieties that vie for taking its place And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape I swear I do my best to never give em space But I feel like I’m gonna break Sometimes I need a break for goodness sake I’ll just say it I’m feeling really scared All this working on my spirit’s really working on my spirit NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN Couple specifics and details I've been deleting pictures and emails And texts And trying not to feel stressed each moment not knowing what’s next In truth I didn’t know what’s next before but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured But now that ship has left the shore For sure I hope she don’t feel that I don’t love her no more I hope she don’t feel she’s not worthy of love Might have had a shot at keeping her trust If I hadn’t been so worried about all the above But None of that helps me now Being that i done gone and messed around And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around To then proceed to tear it down NOW IM ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN Frontline without no shield It is way deeper than preparing my own meals But daily I’m reminded at least she won’t put my stuff away someplace where I won’t find it Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it back before I lost it ‘fore I had to find it I wouldn’t be despondent Being happy is the object I could always learn the way to make a omelette I fear she’s the last of the cuties that won’t only do me for diamonds and rubies and stuff And I got no one to go to the movies wit but maybe I been going to the movies too much And plus I’m dag near forty But thinking that way feels so corny I’ma just try to enjoy myself But this is not where I saw myself ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN
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Sometimes it’s hard To keep my faith in tact My dreams seem out of reach My health gets out whack I hate myself For choices that I’ve made I feel it’s all my fault I try to take the blame My ego loves To feel it’s in control The truth that that’s not so I know deep in my soul And yet I front On others and myself I feel it’s for my gain Perhaps good for my health But When it is crystal clear I have no pull And I’ve had humble pie until I’m full Then I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME I’m blessed with gifts Though much are double edged Sometimes I tend to get Too deep into my head Once I am lost Who knows when I’ll be found When I get in that space I don’t feel safe and sound I start to fret And guess what might go wrong And somehow I forget God’s had me all along Which makes no sense Given that I’m so blessed Yet It’s hard to shake the thought disaster’s coming next When things get grimmer than they’ve ever been The only way it seems like I can win Is TO WALK BY FAITH THE TIMES WHEN I CAN'T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME If y’all only knew The reason why I write There’s bars that make my day But these bars just saved my life This afternoon I was under a cloud Seems like a million years have passed 'tween then and now I watch for signs To gauge where I belong I contemplate all night and day what’s right and wrong Still more often than not I have no clue And love to bite of more than I can chew That’s when I pull my hidden card When forced to choose between a rock and place that’s hard Then I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE I BELIEVE IN GOD GOD BELIEVES IN ME
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Gestation 02:40
All the frustration that I’m showing Is my hitchhiker’s thumb from where I’m at to where I’m going It’s hard to deal until I get the feeling that I’m growing It feels just like I’m glowing I face the reaper while I’m reaping what I’m sowing I wanna run like Jesse Owens, I wanna hide like Jekyll alter ego I wanna scream "yo wattup dream is this as far as we go? I thought we was amigos Yo How you gonna do me like that? Yo how you gonna screw me like that, jack?" Had the knack and got it crackin Thought that I could take a nap, I thought I had it in the knapsack But oh snap What’s that!? OUT THE PRIMORDIAL OOZE SOMETHING NEW OUT THE COSMIC SLOP SOMETHING HOT OUT THE COCOON COMING SOON IT'S GESTATION JUST BE PATIENT When nothing works And I’m feeling low I think "would I be going if I knew I had to struggle first?" Yup for certain No telling what’s the reasoning encouraging occurrences behind the curtain Where they designate the ups and downs Above the clouds Beneath the surface I search for purpose In that assertion For all I know, the price that I’m paying is nominal And this is an integral domino to get where I’m tryna go Vamanos Suspense is killing me I swear it tho Oh snap, there it go OUT THE PRIMORDIAL OOZE SOMETHING NEW OUT THE COSMIC SLOP SOMETHING HOT OUT THE COCOON COMING SOON IT'S GESTATION JUST BE PATIENT
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Straight 03:13
I’m searching for the light in the fog ‘Cause it ain’t the dog in the fight, it’s the fight in the dog Every process take a while while I’m watching the clock All I have to do is smile I’m a child of god So everything a walk in the park Matter fact walkin is awkward we takin the car So I’m sure to hit a target wit a shot in the dark Betcha can’t anticipate where I’ma take it tomorrow Neither can I But I’m strapping on my apron and I’m making it mine Every moment that I made it is the time of my life Every agent in the matrix get a piece of my mind I won’t break Simple and plain And yo this is the praise Because this is the pace It’s no physical plane But yo this is the place THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY THE NEW ME’S MY ACE I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT I’m not the one that’s callin the shots But my ego always bugging always busting my chops Lower brain hopped outta nowhere when I lowered my guard Couple autumns outta order now I’m back on my job Watering crops Why nots Second tries Sighs And untied knots Is all you’ll find In my file And wins by a mile And bam and pow and heat Bam Adabayo And lessons that hurt Whatever though cause now the devil’s getting that work The first shall be last, the last shall be first So before I get me the last of laughs there’ll be smirks I ain’t pressed though To clear no hazards ‘Cause legend has it That I do magic without no "presto" Por supuesto THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY THE NEW ME’S MY ACE I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT Dag I’m really cookin again I’m feeling confident while everybody looking again If you ever made a record and felt a reckoning Find out what the record meant what I recommend Then again That’s easier said than done So I reflect then proceed to hack the feed To try to perceive what doesn’t reflect the sun You gotta stick with it! It make quitters of the quick witted There’s six millions ways of good riddance So go ahead and hop in Even if it’s been a hot minute The water’s nice Before it turns into polar ice Draft you a bill of rights Grab you a bowl of rice Laugh at a poltergeist THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY THE NEW ME’S MY ACE I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT

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Homeboy Sandman’s new album Don’t Feed The Monster, is a collaboration with producer/MC Quelle Chris. It’s also his most vulnerable & poignant work to date. Having grown up in Queens, New York, hip-hop was part of everything in life. This deep-rooted connection to the culture is evident when listening to his style of rhyming- bold, classic & deeply respectful. On Don’t Feed The Monster, he pulls back any pretense to show his most honest truth - a process that he needed both artistically and spiritually. “I was having a hard time and this record saved me thank Quelle and thank God and shout to Gabor Maté,” he said about the new album.

Album producer (and guest vocalist) Quelle Chris has been one of the most talked about and celebrated hip-hop artists on the planet these last few years. Both producing & rapping, Quelle has released critically acclaimed albums like Guns, Innocent Country 2, and Everything’s Fine with his collaborator & wife Jean Grae. “There's a certain mystic/magical power in words, sounds, rhythms, etc. It's rare to come across a brother/artist like Sandman,” he says when asked about his new album with Homeboy Sandman.

The new album Don’t Feed The Monster is a marvel of how an artist can dig deeper still, even years into his craft. The chemistry between the producer & MC has unlocked something within Sandman, surfacing memories, textures & details in a more vivid way than ever before. “(We) wanted to project growth and not regression. Being careful not to feed the monster,” Quelle says about the mission of the album. One would be right to assume that bringing two elite talents together would yield an incredible album. But, when imagining what this album brings in its entirety, Quelle says it best: “raw, pure, organic magic."

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released October 16, 2020

ALL SONGS PRODUCED BY QUELLE CHRIS

VOCALS BY HOMEBOY SANDMAN & QUELLE CHRIS
MIXED & MASTERED BY ALEJANDRO "SOSA" TELLO JR.

COVER PHOTO BY ROBERT P. COHEN
DESIGN BY MITCH LAGROW

EXECUTIVE PRODUCED BY ANGEL DEL VILLAR II, GAVIN TENNILLE, MICHAEL TOLLE

SOUNDS BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE TRUTH
MELLO MUSIC GROUP, 2020

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Homeboy Sandman’s favorite song is “Knocks Me off My Feet” by Stevie Wonder. His second favorite song is “I Know You, I Live You” by Chaka Khan. His favorite Michael Jackson song is “Lady in My Life”. He prefers Low End Theory to Midnight Marauders, but adores both. ... more

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