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I got trauma from my momma
She used to beat me down as if she was the brown bomber
I couldn’t figure out a way to make her feel calmer
I think about it now it kinda make me feel somber
I used to think about it didn't make me feel nothing
Acting like it mattered didn’t make me feel tough and
Feeling tough was really like my #1 focus
From growing up in a city lots of people feel hopeless
And listening to music about sex and violence
Just a matter of time 'fore we was like “let’s try this”
Started having sex when I was 12 years old
My brain wasn’t even done growing
Coming from a mom that used to wild and bug
‘Fore i was a teen I really needed that love
2 years later she would dump me for senior
Solidifying my misogynist demeanor
Hearts that young aren’t meant to be broken
Later on I’d get into incessant weed smoking
Now at 39 I still be wishing and hoping
Somehow we wind up together I am not joking
But lemme take it back before my parents got hitched
My pop was with a woman then that had it all wrong
By 5 years old i would already think about sex
She used to let me hump her legs when he was gone
I know that sounds mad
Under the sheets, rubbing my crotch against her calves
I realize now I always knew that it was something bad
‘Cause up until this song I always kept it from my dad
But how come any 5 year old would wanna hump legs?
I just might have to owe that to my neighbor next door
He was a little older and a little more mature
My mother caught us playing doctor I was only 4
Luckily she caught us ‘fore we started using mouths
But not before I found out how it felt to get aroused
Now I think about it as a grown intellectual
Life as a shortie shouldn’t be so sexual
I also shoulda never had to lie to BCS
That type of thing could really bring a kid a lot of stress
My mom had trauma too so she was only doing her best
I feared that they were gonna take me out of my address
No wonder my relationships with women always fail
What’s crazy is I’m lucky ‘cause at least I’m not in jail
Compared to everybody else I had it so easy
Got family that was touched up by uncles that’s so sleazy
Won’t put they business in the street ‘cause they know who they are
The question I have trouble answering is who am I?
For almost 40 years I was afraid to even ask
My father always taught me men are not supposed to cry
So every bit of pain I ever had I locked away
But now I’m here to let you know that that is not the way
I thought that I had tricked myself, thought I was being slick
That fantasy departed when I started getting sick
The doctors couldn’t tell me any way to make it stop
My soul was under too much pressure it was gonna pop
It turned out that the only way that I could ever heal
Is start to work through all the trauma I had kept concealed
It hasn’t happened overnight
I know that it might take a while
May even take a life
But one way or another I just gotta make it right
Right?
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Extinction
04:59
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Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
I wish that I could give the planet earth a spanking
To vent frustrations i allude to in the hook
Right now a talent crazy as Aretha Franklin
Is an unknown because she doesn’t have the look
I find I come across a lot of nonbelievers
With the exception of believing in the hype
And you’re not relevant ‘less you’re as big as Bieber
And you’re an activist as long as you can type
As a human I can’t help but feel the shame
In my system when the signals are relayed
I don’t think it’s that I have a fear of change
I just think it’s that I have a fear of lames
That’s not to say that i am even cool myself
I’m wise enough to know that I am plain not
But virtuoso of the smile and nod
As I abstain while everybody name drop
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Is it better to be talented or famous?
I admit to you I wish that I was both
But if I only could choose one to be my favorite
The answer’s talent and it isn’t even close
If you’re gifted and upset that someone else
Who’s less gifted's treated like a bigger deal
Then your frown’s ‘cause your profoundly out of touch
I’m afraid that you’ve forgotten what is real
Most people feel that they’re omniscient in a sense
And well informed except for isolated incidents
If you believe in slavery and in the holocaust
But not conspiracy, that’s cognitive dissonance
But facing that would mean you’d have to face the truth
And become comfortable embracing the unknown
To even mention that to you is just a waste
Your better off keeping your face all in your phone
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Oh my god
We’re in the era of trying too hard
Everybody’s so afraid to make mistakes
Different filters every picture that they take
It has gotten audacious
The extent we have to take it back to basics
Regardless what your race is
If you judge people by their race you're racist
Perhaps we oughta have a contest
As a way to help me put it into context
Can anybody rap 'bout some new content
Can anybody rap 'bout one new concept
Once again
I’m throwing stones when I am not without sin
Wish I could look at all of y’all and not wince
But I cannot win
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
Are any cool people still alive?
Or is it all the cool people have died?
If all the cool people have gone
When will the new cool people be born?
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Stress is a way to make yourself sick
I try to never get stressed, while I exist
So if you feel the need to shout then shout loud
Don’t try to hold your stress in, you’ll get stressed out
Once wanted an apology, no apology came
I started to feel the cells in my physiology change
I had to tell her "baby I think we should take a break
I need me a solution, pollution is in my brain!"
Stresses are all around
Stress wants to be a verb
Make sure that it’s a noun
When stresses are repressed
Effects can be profound
So don’t be in denial
When stress is going down
Try to take it all in stride
Please don’t keep it all inside
Meditate or exercise
Get the demons exorcised
STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER, FOR FOLK THAT NEVER SLOW DOWN ALWAYS GOTTA BE ONE THE RUN
STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER
FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND ONE
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER
FOR FOLK THAT NEVER FALL BACK ‘CAUSE THERE’S ALWAYS SOMETHING TO PROVE
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND TWO
Stress could sneak in on a weekday or a weekend
Folks think you’re being foul but it’s really the stress speakin'
You might start being mean at the times when your stress peakin'
You’re like a submarine letting out a distress beacon
AKA a distress signal
There’s stressful relationships and stress from being single
Maybe you feel stressed because you aren’t free to mingle
Or maybe you feel lonely during the days if Kris Kringle
Broke people often think they’re stressed ‘cause they’re poor but I have seen too many stressed rich people to ignore
Given money is generated through blood and war
Obviously creating stress is what money’s for
Stress’ll make your vibe awkward
Stress’ll make your mind altered
So if stress is on your mind often try to keep your mind off it
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER WHEN PEOPLE NEVER SAY NO STEADY WASTING ALL OF THEY CHI
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND THREE
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR FOLK THAT NEVER LET GO ‘CAUSE THEY NEED TO SETTLE THE SCORE
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER
FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND FOUR
Stress is the number one killa!
Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one
Stress is the number one killa!
Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one
Stress is the number one killa!
Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one
Stress is the number one killa!
Stress is the number one yes it’s the number one
STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER WHEN PEOPLE PUSH AWAY TRUTH, LIVING AN ABUNDANCE OF LIES
STRESS IS THE NUMBER 1 KILLER FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND FIVE
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER FOR FOLK THAT NEVER TAKE TIME ALWAYS WANNA BE IN THE MIX
STRESS IS THE NUMBER ONE KILLER
FOR PEOPLE IN THE AGE GROUP ZERO TO A HUNDRED AND SIX
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New dimensions, feelin specialer
Naked on your mattress wit big patches of eczema
The ones you keep scratchin wit your toenails
Stop i had to cop the 20 gallon lotion wholesale
Flying squirrel lats
Keep em flexed to hide the stubborn backfats
That's from all the reckless burger king breakfast that i used to gobble 'fore i flexed the pec and make the teta wobble
Otherwise the waistline slim
The six pack subtle but the chest hair trimmed
HELLO DANCER
WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE?
Wang hang slanted
Front and rear delt like you felt granite *uckin gigantic
All organic, opposite of frail
Also
Wintertime behold a pale torso
Innie
Back like a jet pack
Greys as signs of age but ‘round the jimmy jet black
Limbs like tree trunks
Perestroika for your oyster bringing moisture to your p-funk
All swollen like a bee stung
Fatty like a beef tongue
HELLO DANCER
WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE?
Dig it uh hold up let me finish. They thought he was holed up wait up hold up he’s in Venice. Feel it yeah naw that’s that feeling I might be too lifted oh no watch the ceiling. pardon. Chest out Parton. Best foot forward. look so good get carded. thank you. Thank you very much. Real Gs move and q keeps it very hush. my dime piece off that dairy guess the the 90s ads was right. Say every fad returns when it returns I’m always tight
HELLO DANCER
WHAT DID YOU COME TO SEE?
Left this nest feeling luscious. Skin brown and serve em up like it’s breakfast. Rob Townsend glow off the meteor flexin. Leroy Green incisors. Mike Piazza no questions. You’ll either catch the breasts or the pecs it just depends on how good the checks been. Geniuses get caught up in the text and then miss the lines within lines of inception. butters from the brothers for the texture. core work and ellipticals for the sextras. strutting on em! Birthday suit fresher than a zoot suit.
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Most the time that's in the world
Is time that i will wind up spending waiting on my girl
10 minutes after waking i be ready for the gym
Four hours after waking and i be like what the *uck
She got like 90 different tasks
And all of them are very slow and none are very fast
Supposedly every single one is crucial
It's some ish that i don't ever get used to
Sometimes i ask her if she's almost ready
Each and every single time she says “yeah“
I don't think she's lying on purpose
I really think she has no idea
How long minutes and hours really are
I know it sounds outrageous and i know it sounds bizarre
But no matter how many times i try to set her straight
The only thing that i could ever do is sit and wait
I BE WAITING ON MY GIRL ...
I tell my girl we're leaving 7
She be like “word“
But that is absurd
Sometimes i wind up waiting outside
She has no concept of time
I love her and we'll never ever break up
But why it take 100 million years to do her makeup?
Don't get me wrong i like it when she dolls up
But trying 20 different outfits on makes me say what the *uck
Do i even have to mention
Thee bathroom is like another dimension
What goes on inside is something i could never explain
Time exists on an entirely different plane
Inside i know we really gotta run
Instead I'm in the living room twiddling my thumbs
Makes me never wanna leave my borough
The time I know that I'll invest waiting on my girl
I BE WAITING ON MY GIRL
Before she was my girl yo i was always on time
But now while i be waiting i just sit and write rhymes
It's not unusual that she be taking so long
That by the time we break out i done wrote a whole song
I'll write an album 'fore i get to heaven, no bull
That outcome is inevitable
No ifs ands or maybes
Better than going crazy
If we gotta leave at ten i say we gotta leave at eight
We're still a half an hour late
By the time we call the uber or the time we call the lyft
She really has a gift
I'm just being expressive
I'm not even really mad
Actually it's quite impressive
We'll be leaving in a second fam
Till then I'll just be staring at the second hand
WAITING ON MY GIRL ...
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Shorty Heights
03:04
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Holy cow
I guess I wasn’t ready then because I’m ready now
Know sanitation’s tired of sweeping up confetti piles
But I’ll keep winning anyhow
What’s just above the brow, behind the sternum
Be the stern and be the bow
The ticker and the thinker
The heart and mind
The hook the line and sinker
We’re gonna need a bigger boat
And bigger reel
This being the realest thing I ever wrote
Whatever titling is code
For greatest story that was ever told
My baby nice wit beans and overnight she let em soak
I float through lucid dreams and don’t point out that I’m from Queens ‘cause that’s a trope
I rather death before dishonor
And lather up with Dr. Bronner’s soap
Head of steam and spreading semen
But as seen through a kaleidoscope
My superpower is my senses
Aren’t boggled down by needing a consensus
Matter’s not a matter that requires my attention
Minimalist propensities
Necessity’s the mother of invention
And out for self until ascension
The road to hell is paved with good intentions
My offer includes compensation complete with a pension
For full cooperation and total attention
As far as crossing bridges I haven’t arrived at
I never tried that
So nevermind that
The act of decision is exquisite
No rule of thumb or any other digit
I leave it to the instant ‘cause I seldom could predict if I could dig it
Instinct’ll kick in, and start insisting “that’s the ticket” and i listen
By definition every flip is different
This is even when the coin’s in mint condition
Every time I trip and fall
I could see a clearer picture in my crystal ball
I went from cat that used to play the wall to now I know the mating call for every creature great and small
That’s what I call evolved and not a hand that was supposedly a paw
Turns out every strength was something I was certain was a flaw
And all from tryna walk ‘fore learning how to crawl
Rain soaked
If you don’t know me by now then we in the same boat
For the record like I’s Usain Bolt
It ain’t the same as stayin woke
Nope
I’m an artist not an entertainer
My brain is a receiver not a generator
I even helped a lady by delivering her baby in a broken elevator
Later
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Scare You
03:41
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The road less traveled not gold it’s all gravel
Burdens on your own back, no pack camel
Every step you take is a risk, mad gambles
Everybody ready to judge, mad gavels
Everything is dark, no torches no candles
Make it by the skin of your own tooth enamel
Win the war but often leave the battle in shambles
Come across a lot you never thought you could handle
When nobody is before you or beside you
Ain’t nobody done it so nobody can advise you
No one else is doing it so there’s no one to relate to
You think you could be the first so lots of people hate you
Wanna see you falter
Hate to think that they live in a system you could alter
Luckily that’s a fabrication we could never fall for
Bruh
YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
Anytime you make a mention
Of you straying from convention
People start with building fences
People start with building tension, voicing worries
They want to voice these worries in a hurry
They feel like they’re super necessary
Should you happen to ignore em they may lose they whole decorum
They may even go as fars to clown you in a public forum
You rejecting the experience of adhering to the norm really strikes a chord
They think you calling em boring
Of course
All they see is walls and not doors
They just move away and not towards
Those are their problems not yours
And not mines
Or like minds
Think of this as a wink of the eye
It all could change in the blink of an eye but
YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
One day they like “don’t quit that job you don’t like you need insurance ‘cause you’re gonna get sick”
Next day they don’t let someone know how they feel ‘cause they too frightened that they gonna get dissed
One day they like “that relationship might make you unhappy, but you don’t wanna wind up alone “
Next day they like “this is never where i wanted to wind up. Feel like putting a gun to my dome.”
‘Cause there’s nothing more dangerous than playing it safe
It’s a trap you need to make an escape
Skate
Break
Don’t wait
Making moves with no faith seals your fate
There ain’t no gains playing low stakes
It's a damn shame tryna save face
tryna act sane
Nome sane
Safe
YOUR PARENTS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
DOCTORS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
STATISTICS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
TEACHERS ARE TRYNA SCARE YOU
CULTURE IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
COMFORT IS TRYNA SCARE YOU
YEAH YOU
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Sometimes I go up on the roof
And I walk across the ledge
I be careful not to trip ‘cause if I slipped then I’d be dead
I don’t do it for adrenaline or do it for the rush
No, I do it just for proving to myself I got the guts
Deep inside me it reminds me that the stakes are very high
Might not live to see the morning any moment I could die
Furthermore that going for it is the meaning of my life
Like to think that you could see it when you look me in the eye
I was not always a expert walking ledges hopping roofs
When I started being daring I’s so scared I couldn’t move
Still I’d go up to the top and didn’t stop ‘cause I was spooked
All I needed was some practicing to get into my groove
A technique that I developed since the day that I was born
When my heart gets started beating way more faster than the norm
When the plot is getting stranger and I know that I’m in danger of being splattered on the ground
I never look down
TO OVERCOME A FEAT
I MIGHT LOOK AT MY FEET
BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN
ONCE I MADE UP MY MIND
AND I MIGHT TAKE MY TIME
BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN
When my psoriasis is bad and I’m invited to the beach
Goodness gracious my temptation is to fret beyond belief
Yesterday on my right shoulder it was visible and pink
I got caught up in imagining what everyone would think
When I got there no one noticed so it wasn’t even bad
But I think about the way I’d have responded if they had
Being shallow is for a*sholes being vain is being lame
I got all that figured out and worry bout it just the same
I was talking to my homey when a pretty girl arrived
Later on into the night, she had picked up on my vibe
It did not take very long before I thought that I could smash
Paid attention when I spoke when I made jokes then she would laugh
Could have worried that she’d come across a patch and find it gross
Go from sitting in my lap to tryna snap and tryna roast
But instead I kept it focused later on when i suggested we get closer she was down
Because I didn’t look down
TO OVERCOME A FEAT
I MIGHT LOOK AT MY FEET
BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN
ONCE I MADE UP MY MIND
AND I MIGHT TAKE MY TIME
BUT I NEVER LOOK DOWN
Being an independent rapper isn’t always fun and games
‘Specially me as I’m an artist that don’t never sound the same
Since I’m constantly rethinking how I think and how I rap and how I act
Every record like I gotta start from scratch
It raises questions far as makin scratch
But I won’t choke out my spirit with a fear of falling flat
I been riddled with anxiety and ravaged by disease
Till I realized it’s from worrying ‘bout who I gotta please
If I worried ‘bout the critics, getting rich or getting old
Then I’d never have the strength to tell the stories that I’ve told
If I constantly was burdened by the thought that I could fail
I could never be a soldier cause my soul might be for sale
I feel fortunate to fork over the cost of being fly
Doing stuff that’s super easy while I’m really really high
And I know that if I fell it was would be fatal what keep me able to cultivate my sound
Is that I never look down
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Monument
04:52
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MONUMENT
Sunny side of the street
Here and now, all kind of mystique
Been around, no sign I’ma cease
Sheesh
My inner child not soundly asleep
Push come to shove
Non traditional lumps
Unconditional love
My condition is buff so
Opposition is bugged
Yup
Always wanted to make a mark
Got distracted by makers mark
My salvation was making art
Like to thank you for taking part
Throw my Aries on and tie em up
Dodged the fit that hit the shan and dapped the fam using the hand that fed the lion cub
My closest friend is friar tuck
MONUMENT
I’m full of hope
In present tense I’m in the tempest but I’m still afloat
Soaked
Know most folks never heard of me but I’m still the G.O.A.T.
I accept the throne
Ever since the day I said it it’s been set in stone
I don’t think they understand me Q
Folk had better go get theyself some Rosetta Stone
I love faith and belief
I love taking a leap
I love breaking a lease
I love taking a leak between wake and asleep
I’m not here to perform I’m not here to pretend
Stuff I be on
Above and beyond
And I done it before
And I’ll do it again
MONUMENT
What an efficient sun
I do my best to try to follow its example when I’m time to get these dishes done
Consistency’s condition one
I’ll lose my vision and get focused on a mission to acquire wealth
The times I chase a check it takes a sec to get a check in from my higher self
Thanks for dropping by
Since any minute I could drop and die
So I don’t wanna waste a drop of time
Inhibited
Or acidic instead of alkaline
Ain’t no shame in taking a year or day to wipe a tear away and clear away debris
That comes standard for the master and commander
Where I’m standing is the place to be
MONUMENT
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Triple Warmer
02:29
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I been teaching myself Tao on YouTube
For peace of mind
And taking more time when I chew food
Tryna train my left and right brain like a choo choo
Don’t engage with a thought ‘less I choose to
Lemme introduce you to the new school and unusual
Only say things that are useful
Triple warmer then my aura is lit
I know all the different colors that my organs emit
I took an overnight trip to Vegas
Everything I came in contact with was anus
I wouldn’t recommend it every record was a aimless sort of heinous
Came home and cleansed my palette wit the "Quelle beats" playlist
That was painless
Came up on some cadences it pays to be creative
You can emulate the manner of the latter day saint
But don’t follow me crossing the street
It ain’t safe
I put in work then i deliver
I make the healing sound and work the anger out the liver
In Brooklyn you can’t stargaze
But they got unlimited popcorn refills at the Barclays
In the dark age
Of modified Spotify plays
There lived a brother that was brotherly
Who used to channel and used to chant
Who favorite channel was Discovery
In summary
I believe in only god and only now
Plus I’m vegan so it’s only right, I say holy cow
Even tho the other day I had some pizza I just told it for atonement plus was vegan in the moment when I wrote this
By now it’s obvious I wasn’t built for showbiz
But peep the dwarfs that’s standing on my shoulders
And hanging from my scrotum
Yo I’m over it
I brought a couple flows that I could float em
Peace
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Biters
03:40
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Suckas bite so much like the bitings accepted
Like the bitings expected
Not only that
Suckas bite so much like the bitings respected
Like biting is excellent
Wow
It’s really is a head trip
Men and women bite people they go to bed with
People bite people other person barely had spoke
That's a bite, someone thinks that it’s the best thing you wrote
The biting is reckless
People bite fore they even had breakfast
How you bite something soon as you wake up?
I don’t even understand the chemical makeup
Nowadays rappers bite old hooks
Listen to me youngin biting's never a good look
I know your fanbase not familiar but Jay was doing that back on Roc la Familia
Speaking of Jay that brother get mad bit
I don’t even understand how homey could handle it
Half the rappers that don’t start they name with little or young, start they name with j now where you think that that come from?
Biters
Biting everybody
I don’t even know if it’s a habit or a hobby
Cats be acting cocky being copies
It is really comedy
Biters
Death to biters
Slow death to biters
Gruesome painful death to biters
I hate biters
Biters think biting is a means to an end
If you are a biter we will never be friends
Everything they present is only pretend
Wish it was something I could prevent
I try to lead by example
But there are those who’d say it’s biting rhyming over samples
Guess biting is in the eye of the beholder
Either way I wish biting was over
Biting is a sign of the times
When they drop a new sneaker just look at the lines
I wonder if suckas could think for theyself if they tried
Not that they try
To even decide
Not that they even attempt
To ever dissent
Or try to be fresh
Or try to be new
They try to be you
All they wanna do is bite and chew
Biting's an epidemic
Biting's part of everything, its systemic
My mother’s not a biter and my father’s not a biter
Maybe biting is genetic
Biting is pathetic
Biting is a diuretic
Yeah I said it
Sometimes people bite and say they paying homage
But that’s garbage
I promise
In truth they know it isn’t right
In truth they know that they are biters
The truth is that they love to bite
Biters
Death to biters
Slow death to biters
Gruesome painful death to biters
I hate biters
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12. |
Alone Again
04:00
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I woke up this morning in a house not a home
I woke up this morning I was all on my own
Since I woke up this morning I don’t know what I’m doing
I been all in my dome
Everything is unknown
Wonder if she’ll cooperate and stay away
How do I operate on the day to day?
And least last night I didn’t lay awake
I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn’t shake
But new anxieties that vie for taking its place
And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape
I swear I do my best to never give em space
But I feel like I’m gonna break
Sometimes I need a break for goodness sake
I’ll just say it
I’m feeling really scared
All this working on my spirit’s really working on my spirit
NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN
Couple specifics and details
I've been deleting pictures and emails
And texts
And trying not to feel stressed each moment not knowing what’s next
In truth I didn’t know what’s next before but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured
But now that ship has left the shore
For sure
I hope she don’t feel that I don’t love her no more
I hope she don’t feel she’s not worthy of love
Might have had a shot at keeping her trust
If I hadn’t been so worried about all the above
But
None of that helps me now
Being that i done gone and messed around
And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around
To then proceed to tear it down
NOW IM ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN
Frontline without no shield
It is way deeper than preparing my own meals
But daily I’m reminded at least she won’t put my stuff away someplace where I won’t find it
Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it back before I lost it ‘fore I had to find it
I wouldn’t be despondent
Being happy is the object
I could always learn the way to make a omelette
I fear she’s the last of the cuties that won’t only do me for diamonds and rubies and stuff
And I got no one to go to the movies wit but maybe I been going to the movies too much
And plus I’m dag near forty
But thinking that way feels so corny
I’ma just try to enjoy myself
But this is not where I saw myself
ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN
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13. |
Walk By Faith
04:47
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Sometimes it’s hard
To keep my faith in tact
My dreams seem out of reach
My health gets out whack
I hate myself
For choices that I’ve made
I feel it’s all my fault
I try to take the blame
My ego loves
To feel it’s in control
The truth that that’s not so
I know deep in my soul
And yet I front
On others and myself
I feel it’s for my gain
Perhaps good for my health
But
When it is crystal clear I have no pull
And I’ve had humble pie until I’m full
Then
I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
I’m blessed with gifts
Though much are double edged
Sometimes I tend to get
Too deep into my head
Once I am lost
Who knows when I’ll be found
When I get in that space
I don’t feel safe and sound
I start to fret
And guess what might go wrong
And somehow I forget
God’s had me all along
Which makes no sense
Given that I’m so blessed
Yet
It’s hard to shake the thought disaster’s coming next
When things get grimmer than they’ve ever been
The only way it seems like I can win
Is
TO WALK BY FAITH
THE TIMES WHEN I CAN'T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
If y’all only knew
The reason why I write
There’s bars that make my day
But these bars just saved my life
This afternoon
I was under a cloud
Seems like a million years have passed 'tween then and now
I watch for signs
To gauge where I belong
I contemplate all night and day what’s right and wrong
Still more often than not I have no clue
And love to bite of more than I can chew
That’s when I pull my hidden card
When forced to choose between a rock and place that’s hard
Then
I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
I WALK BY FAITH, IN TIMES WHEN I CAN’T SEE
I BELIEVE IN GOD
GOD BELIEVES IN ME
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14. |
Gestation
02:40
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All the frustration that I’m showing
Is my hitchhiker’s thumb from where I’m at to where I’m going
It’s hard to deal until I get the feeling that I’m growing
It feels just like I’m glowing
I face the reaper while I’m reaping what I’m sowing
I wanna run like Jesse Owens,
I wanna hide like Jekyll alter ego
I wanna scream "yo wattup dream is this as far as we go?
I thought we was amigos
Yo
How you gonna do me like that?
Yo how you gonna screw me like that, jack?"
Had the knack and got it crackin
Thought that I could take a nap, I thought I had it in the knapsack
But oh snap
What’s that!?
OUT THE PRIMORDIAL OOZE
SOMETHING NEW
OUT THE COSMIC SLOP
SOMETHING HOT
OUT THE COCOON
COMING SOON
IT'S GESTATION
JUST BE PATIENT
When nothing works
And I’m feeling low
I think "would I be going if I knew I had to struggle first?"
Yup for certain
No telling what’s the reasoning encouraging occurrences behind the curtain
Where they designate the ups and downs
Above the clouds
Beneath the surface
I search for purpose
In that assertion
For all I know, the price that I’m paying is nominal
And this is an integral domino to get where I’m tryna go
Vamanos
Suspense is killing me I swear it tho
Oh snap, there it go
OUT THE PRIMORDIAL OOZE
SOMETHING NEW
OUT THE COSMIC SLOP
SOMETHING HOT
OUT THE COCOON
COMING SOON
IT'S GESTATION
JUST BE PATIENT
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15. |
Straight
03:13
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I’m searching for the light in the fog
‘Cause it ain’t the dog in the fight, it’s the fight in the dog
Every process take a while while I’m watching the clock
All I have to do is smile I’m a child of god
So everything a walk in the park
Matter fact walkin is awkward we takin the car
So I’m sure to hit a target wit a shot in the dark
Betcha can’t anticipate where I’ma take it tomorrow
Neither can I
But I’m strapping on my apron and I’m making it mine
Every moment that I made it is the time of my life
Every agent in the matrix get a piece of my mind
I won’t break
Simple and plain
And yo this is the praise
Because this is the pace
It’s no physical plane
But yo this is the place
THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME
WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES
THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME
SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED
THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY
THE NEW ME’S MY ACE
I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS
I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT
I’m not the one that’s callin the shots
But my ego always bugging always busting my chops
Lower brain hopped outta nowhere when I lowered my guard
Couple autumns outta order now I’m back on my job
Watering crops
Why nots
Second tries
Sighs
And untied knots
Is all you’ll find
In my file
And wins by a mile
And bam and pow and heat
Bam Adabayo
And lessons that hurt
Whatever though cause now the devil’s getting that work
The first shall be last, the last shall be first
So before I get me the last of laughs there’ll be smirks
I ain’t pressed though
To clear no hazards
‘Cause legend has it
That I do magic without no "presto"
Por supuesto
THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME
WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES
THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME
SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED
THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY
THE NEW ME’S MY ACE
I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS
I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT
Dag I’m really cookin again
I’m feeling confident while everybody looking again
If you ever made a record and felt a reckoning
Find out what the record meant what I recommend
Then again
That’s easier said than done
So I reflect then proceed to hack the feed
To try to perceive what doesn’t reflect the sun
You gotta stick with it!
It make quitters of the quick witted
There’s six millions ways of good riddance
So go ahead and hop in
Even if it’s been a hot minute
The water’s nice
Before it turns into polar ice
Draft you a bill of rights
Grab you a bowl of rice
Laugh at a poltergeist
THE OLD ME DON’T OWE ME
WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES
THE NEW ME’S THE TRUE ME
SINCE ALL FEARS BEEN FACED
THE OLD ME’S MY HOMEY
THE NEW ME’S MY ACE
I’M LONELY BY NO MEANS
I KNOW ME, I’M STRAIGHT
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Homeboy Sandman New York, New York
Homeboy Sandman’s favorite song is “Knocks Me off My Feet” by Stevie Wonder. His second favorite song is “I Know You, I Live You” by Chaka Khan. His favorite Michael Jackson song is “Lady in My Life”. He prefers Low End Theory to Midnight Marauders, but adores both. ... more
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